Say sth to myself

How come I feel the time is passing with sorrow?

I am tired and want to take a rest.

Anything / anyone can cheer me up, pls show up. I do not have any little energy nor patience to wait and to serve anyone.

Sick sick sick. I hate that. I hate I have loved you, and the memory you left. We don't love anymore, but there are so much memory.

I know I can't forget, still I want to forgive. I just need to be happy from now on.

May my GOD blessings be with me...